Alan: Map, why are you wasting your time? I know why! Some more soul searching and…
When I think about myself how I was 5 years ago, I see that certain things were "closed" to me -- I could read about them, but it would not help. I did not understand what it was about, but what worse, I did not realize that I did not understand - I assumed I did. This question has been tormenting me ever since -- if we lack certain experience, is this absolutely impossible to explain what, say, other people feel? Even if somebody will work hard trying?
I think Joe's stubborn refusal to understand made me to adopt him as "little Map"

I am talking to him like to myself 5 years ago. Now thinking about it, it was a terrible choice. There is a desperate difference between us: I always wanted to understand how things work, and Joe wants to tell things how they should work. It's like "descriptive" and "prescriptive" grammaticians, or "liberals" and "conservatives" in politics. This makes my mission almost impossible.
If not…! If not those rare moments when Joe has insights and when he breaks barriers with his usual ferocity.

[ January 31, 2004: Message edited by: Mapraputa Is ]