I have to say I really admire your spirit. I've had chances to do things I love for my life, but didn't have enough courage to go with them. So I'm blowing the horn for you, way to go.
There is no reality with a clear line seperating black and white. They are all mixed up. So don't be upset with negativity, for it's not on the side against you, but part of you, just like possitivity.
How many times have you been tripped by the obstacles you had already seen? Probably not many. We get tripped by the things we don't see. So if you are having a hard time advancing, there must be something you don't see that's playing tricks with you.
If I were you, I'd study three things.
1) Me. What are my advantages and disadvantages. What people say in forum are true? Since they've said it, there must be some reason to it. What is it? How am I going to balance it?
2) Employers. What do they need? How am I going to fulfill their needs? Email them, call them, fax them, pound them with questions and talk to them. If I couldn't get a job, at least I could get an answer that leads to one.
3) Competitors. Study them, thoroughly.
Do what you believe, since you get critisized anyway ^_^.
Keep up the good fight and things will work out for you.
PS, do you have to be an employee? Why not an employer?